(For my regular Taboo Tuesday readers: I'm taking a one-week break from the story of Lori-Anne to present an equally taboo—and hot, at least to me—subject.)
Caroline's Little World is, from one perspective, a manifesto for my own hyper-dirty, hyper-taboo brand of ageplay, which I recognize as very different from much of the wonderful stuff other authors write under that rubric (I don't call it a genre, because I don't think ageplay is a genre, since too many different kinds of ageplay stories can be told, in too many different narrative modes, for that—see below for more on this topic).
Here's an example from Caroline's Little World that I think probably turned a few readers off—or, to borrow Renee's terminology from her post yesterday, squicked them out:
Silently, now, he went back to teaching me in a much more direct way. He gently urged the thing in my rosebud inward, and outward, and inward. He turned the thing that vibrated on, and moved it gently about my bare little vulva until I was moaning, "Please. . . please. . ."
He turned the thing that vibrated off, but he continued to rouse me with his lovely fingers, as he said, "Now, young lady, you are being trained in your rosebud, to be a nice bottom-girl for your Daddy. When your Daddy puts his Daddy-thing in your rosebud, your rosebud will be ready to give his cock the pleasure it deserves, won't it?"
"Ahhhh. . . yes, Daddy--yes, Daddy."
"Are you going to take Daddy's cock in your little rosebud, Caroline?"
"Yes, Daddy!"
"Are you going to be my little bottom-girl?"
"Yes, Daddy!"
"Your time has come, young lady. You may let go of your bottom-cheeks. You may use your hands to touch yourself, to make your first time more fun for you."
Oh, it almost sounded like he had. . . it was so wonderfully degrading to think that like Mr. Hastings he had fucked the asses of dozens of girls. . . I did, I put my right hand down to my vulva, as I thought about my husband fucking other girls' bottoms. "To make your first time more fun for you"--because of course it wasn't really fun for a girl to take a cock in her ass: she did it because her Daddy made her do it.
I think Renee hit the nail on the head in her post yesterday: ageplay is a very complex thing that involves a lot more than simply pretending to be younger than you are. We all get older, and I think we all wish we didn't. Whether we had a wonderful childhood to which we wish we could return, or we had a troubled childhood we'd like the chance to get back and force to run along better lines, or (this is most of us, I think) something in between, there's an attraction to pretending to be young, if there's someone caring present, to take charge of us.
Because I'm fascinated by taboo sex, my own ageplay fantasies revolve around the erotic element, and the violation of innocence as well as its protection. Your mileage will vary, but for me, to be able to read and to write these taboo fantasies, which if they ever came true would be atrocities, helps me feel that I am not alone.
At the same time, when I write ageplay, the most satisfying part for me is writing the scenes where the daddy vows to protect his little girl even as he is violating her innocence. Even if, as often happens in my stuff, the daddy decides he wants to display his little girl to other men, or (still more taboo) to loan her to them, the central idea never ceases to be that she belongs to him, and he would never let anything happen to her that she didn't, deep down, want to happen.
I think that that's where dirty ageplay and clean ageplay meet in the central fantasy of simply being young, and under the protection of a kind older person. What do you think?
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I think you hit the nail on the head with your examples of dirty vs. clean. Usually I lean towrd the clean side, but there is also something exciting about the dirty stuff ;-) i feel like it all depends on the little's psychy. If they are truly "squicked" out by sex during little time then it is not as fun to read for me.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Alyssa. That's a great point about the importance of the little liking the sex. I do find though that in some scenes, if the little's consent is implied, and not made explicit, it can be very hot, as my own fantasies of non-consent seem to take over where the story leaves a kind of gap.
DeleteYes, it does not have to be explicit consent, I agree that it can be way hot to let your imagination run wild ;-)
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I think you nailed it with your descriptions of clean vs dirty. I had a fucked up childhood, being sexually molested by my father starting when I was six. I read both but prefer clean. It's seems more consented vs being lent to other men. If I had a do over it would be clean as a little and sexual as a mature woman. Funny thing is after my traumatized childhood I love reading both.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for sharing that, Laurel. <3
DeleteWow, Laurel, I'm amazed you can read both and are not triggered. It sounds like you've done the work to overcome the trauma. I think it makes sense to want the clean as a little thing, especially in your situation. <3
DeleteGreat post, Emily! For me, as long as the Little and Daddy have a loving relationship and the Little knows she is always protected, then all types of ageplay are enjoyable to read. I did read a book once where there was no loving relationship, at all, and I found it to be a difficult read.
ReplyDeleteThanks, SH! Yes, I have to say I can't really imagine I'd enjoy reading or writing an ageplay story where the caring aspect was absent.
DeleteEm, I didn't think I had any interest in the taboo until I read Caroline's Rocking Horse and it rocked my world. I do think the little's enjoyment of it is key (well both of their enjoyment, I guess). It's hard for me to imagine anything hotter than what you wrote, actually.
ReplyDeleteGreat post. For me I can read both. I think the most Important part is being loved, cherished, protected her best interest at heart.
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Wonderfully put Emily and I agree it is a mixture. I enjoyed this post very much. Email : hisbluelilangel@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteInteresting way to address it. Clean vs. Dirty Ageplay. I hadn't thought of it before in those terms. I do enjoy reading ageplay books.
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I've read both - but probably lean toward the clean. I want to feel that connection between the characters. Salenajo@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteGreat discussion on some of the differences in ageplay. This week is interesting delving into the "psyche" of this "genre" of writing. I like both the clean and the dirty ageplay. I am a person who like to re-read books and I will say that my age play books are the most re-read. Thanks for participating in this interesting topic. Blessings, Renee.
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I read both clean and dirty age play. For me just one or two words can trigger a good emotional connection between the characters to carry the story line off. Whether it be the clean or dirty version.
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I've read both clean and dirty...and depending what I'm.in the mood for, I enjoy both. I especially like when both are included in the same book...the sweet innocent scenes follows by the dirty , yet all so captivating scenes.
ReplyDeleteI can't separate them....I embrace both.
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It definitely depends on my mood as to whether I want clean or dirty. Sometimes I want even a combo of both.
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Hmmm...I don't know if I would label it "dirty" I prefer reading about sex as a Little, but if it doesn't turn them on it doesn't turn me on. I am definitely not into rape. I really enjoyed reading all the little Caroline books.
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Now me I enjoy both types of ageplay. It really depends on what I'm in the mood for.
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ReplyDeleteI like both clean and dirty but do lean more towards dirty! I didn't realize your books were more on the dirty and I can't wait to start reading them!
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